Missing you
Today was the first big event in Alyssa's life and I never thought it would be as hard as it was. As I stood there alone waiting for the auditorium doors to open, tears just stared streaming down my face. I couldn't stop thinking about Stacy. How unfair it was that she wasn't there for this. This spiraled into my mind going to all the things she will miss...5th grade promotion, 8th grade graduation, High School, 1st dances, Proms, college, weddings everything that a lil girl wants her mom for. It's just not fair, but I am beyond honored to step in. There are days when I look at her and she is totally me. Days she is totally Stacy. I used to always say God will give me a lil girl and she is going to be so girly I won't even know how to relate. She'll love pink, dolls and glitter, but I would make her love sports. Well he did just that. She is the best and some of ther worst of both of us. The ways we come out of this beautiful little girl is amazing.