Missing you

Today was the first big event in Alyssa's life and I never thought it would be as hard as it was.  As I stood there alone waiting for the auditorium doors to open, tears just stared streaming down my face.  I couldn't stop thinking about Stacy.  How unfair it was that she wasn't there for this.  This spiraled into my mind going to all the things she will miss...5th grade promotion, 8th grade graduation, High School, 1st dances, Proms, college, weddings everything that a lil girl wants her mom for.  It's just not fair, but I am beyond honored to step in.  

There are days when I look at her and she is totally me.  Days she is totally Stacy.  I used to always say God will give me a lil girl and she is going to be so girly I won't even know how to relate.  She'll love pink, dolls and glitter, but I would make her love sports.  Well he did just that.  She is the best and some of ther worst of both of us.  The ways we come out of this beautiful little girl is amazing.  

Today she smiled at me and I just knew her mom was smiling through her.  She is living right in that lil body.  Then as the musical entertainment part of the show started, you guessed it the middle child pay attention to me was shinning bright.  She danced her heart out and all I could see was a vision of myself.  Lol she did me proud.  The video is AWESOME! 

I wake up everyone morning with a grateful heart for God's blessing in my not perfect, not without problems, not without stress but awesome and extremely wonderful life. 

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  1. UnknownJune 20, 2014 at 7:59 PM

    I love you Terri.. Cherish all these moments... before you know it they have grown up. You 2 will take this world by storm and I am happy to witness it. Love you bunches. MIchael

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  2. UnknownJune 20, 2014 at 8:37 PM

    Teri, you are correct in all those observations. Many times I see little stacy and then I see you. You are doing a fantastic job being mom AND dad to a truly amazing little girl.

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