Today's Grab Bag of Thoughts

Well my first flight was a successful one in the pure sense that it took off and landed safely. However, my goal to sleep was spoiled that the grizzly bear sleeping a row or two behind me. But when I was a sleep at least I had the advantage of not smelling the extremely disgusting farts either coming from my seat mates or the man in front me. Hey I could have been worse the young boy that was screaming in he terminal that he didn't want to go on an airplane could have continued on the plane, but instead passed out. See there is a silver lining if you look for it. Off to flight #2

My friends say that to me all the time...LOL

Yesterday evening, this strange feeling of utter sadness came over me.  There have been a few that I have had over the years that have proven to come true. The last time it happened was at Good Friday Service in Irvine, when at the end I found out that the church had just lost a dear friend that week.  I suppose I was feeling the sadness of the room.  Yesterday's feeling was the cross between utter sadness that really made my whole body ache and a need for closeness (hugs, hand holding, a kiss, something I could not put my finger on) just a longing.  I wasn't in a bad place, having a bad day or even ready to tear up (which of course is a big surprise you if you know me).  It was just the deep need to give a hug or get a hug from someone.  I'm guessing one of my friends is going through something and I just don't know it yet.  Maybe I was just coming down from the high of a great weekend back into reality.  No clue, but I can tell you this feeling is rarely wrong, and

Dear Metro, If you are going to run to different lines from the same platform - blue line and Expo line - and tell your riders to rely on the train signage then you need to start making sure your drivers change all of the signage before leaving. Yet again today a train with the sign "Long Beach" on the front of the train also said culver city on the side of some cars and blue line on others. Again you've stranded people at Pico because of this or even further when it is not announced what train it is. Come on I know you can do it, no more laziness. People count on you to get them to and from work/school and home. We are on schedules too. We won't even tackle to other issues.

I really have nothing to say so I will just say: living in two states at the same time is hard. My cat is better than your cat. My dog eats more shoes than your dog. The Padres don't suck as bad as they did. My family is. Awesome. I need to run more. I need to reconnect with my friends. I think Motherhood scares me, but I am gonna tackle it head on. Hey have I told you lately that I love you? I Think too much but I talk too much also so I guess I am just too interesting to stay quiet. Sometimes I just want to walk outside and scream other times I want to look directly at the person and scream. Match.com sucks save your money. Dating is hard but even harder when you are tired of doing it. I think God works in mysterious ways...I've never really knew what people really thought of me, it makes me smile. Not sure I deserve it but it is nice. Just trying to be the best me I can be. I like to rhyme lol. Are you bored yet? I still have 20 mins on this train, I can keep going. Had a n

Loving unconditionally, no matter how hard they may make for you to do. Disciplining even when it does hurt you more than it will hurt them. Never ever having your own personal space again. Being excited about bodily functions. Removing the phrase "I've lost sleep" and replacing it with "what's sleep?" Finding an affinity for cold dinners. Finding a strange pleasure in doing things over and over again. Hearing "But you NEVER"...about 100 times a day Knowing that they hear you but could careless. Accepting you are not perfect. No matter what you think you may have screwed up, if you've given them all you can and then some...you've done good! Accepting those AWESOME hugs and kisses ALL DAY LONG, while hearing I love you even after they told you how mean you are. Mom I love you for all you do, say and don't do. I thank you for showing me what a GREAT mother looks like. I hope one day to be as awesome at it as you ar