Thoughts
As I sit here looking out on the dark ocean and the boats bobbing on the water in front of me, my mind is running wild. I want something so bad and it is actually obtainable, but some what tainted. I want the A version and I am being offered the B version. I know the price I am willing to pay, but it seems to have strings attached that I didn't ask for. It is sort of a dream come true, and a heart ache too. I want to say forget it, but I can't. I want to detach myself from it's hold on me but I can't. I want to tell the world of the options I got, but I also don't want anyone to tell me about other options. Being alone here and being able to search my heart and mind have been great, but sometimes you can hear who is who and you just want to go go go. I'm sure that as I stay in this place longer the path I should take will reveal itself to me, but right now the options look scary and grim. I know what I want, but don't know how to get it.
