Today's Grab Bag of Thoughts

Looks like it is that time again I am laying down to go to bed and I start my prayers and then my brain just wanders over and over again to so many different places. Like every night I thank God for the life that I have and everything he's given to me, everything he will give to me, everything he's taken from me and everything he will take from me and then the rest goes crazy. As I lay there my brain just wanders from thought to thought. When I catch myself doing this I stop and think that God must be up there thinking alright already get to the point. Or possibly having some laughs with the Angels thinking does she ever just tell me what she needs and what she wants. Of course and I catch myself to start praying all over again from scratch. Thank you God for this and for that and so on and so forth. Then it hits again my mind wanders. And next thing I know I'm having a complete conversation with myself in my head and not praying anymore. Sometimes I even wake up and think

Wow! It is nice working at a place that not only appreciates you, but a place where the stress is having to leave work because your 4 hours are done but they went so quick and you just can't believe it. But they just need one more thing.  What, you don't care if I work longer days?  I recently took a job for only 3 days a week and only 4 hours, crazy that I actually like it and would not mind adding more hours.  I really hope that when I am ready for a full time job they are ready for me.  It if funny how when you lose everything that your priorities in life change and you don't think the same about money.  Sure I will miss somethings, but having time with Alyssa is more important than material things.

SERIOUSLY???? Who in the heck do these men think they are?  I mean you must be single for a reason! Not all women are exactly a like and just because someone did or said something to you doesn't mean we are all the same.  Come on! You can sit there and say I am not like other men...but if I use your rational I should just say oh your're one of those guys each time you say or do something someone I dated once did.  My advice to those who will listen (not many): 1. No one is perfect and neither are you.  There is no reason in the entire world that you should be anyone you are not.  Be real.  Let the other person be real. Don't be judgemental.   2. Yes, there are many people in this world that are fake or post pics that look nothing like them.  If you've met one of these people of course you'd be skeptical to meet anyone else.  But then what is your choice...be alone for the rest of your life? Not everyone is going to screw you over....open up to the chance of happines

And still epic failures, Ugh.

Kids just don't understand that the world does not revolve around them.  That their parents could actually have other relationships.  This morning while I was doing my bible study, my daughter woke up.  When she asked if she could come into my bed I agreed but told her this was my personal time with God and I did not want to be interrupted. Well after maybe 5 minutes, the interruptions, the trying to get away with something she is not supposed to do and the telling me that she was going to be late for school happened.  As I sit here trying to get my heart back to learning about God all I feel is anger.  I feel like she could care less that I have a life too.  Yes I know she is 6 and will grow out of somethings, but this rudeness it one thing I just don't care for.   I am trying to get right with God and my head is so foggy with anger.  I am writing now, just to clear my head and ask God to help me now scream at her when I am done because she is still sitting right here still in