Today's Grab Bag of Thoughts

Today I got so many wonderful messages.  It was very nice to read.  However, as the day draws to a close I realize much more so today then ever, I have a lot of people fooled.  I will be the first to admit I suck at this mom thing.  I can't control my temper, I expect too much, or maybe not enough.  I don't say I love you enough or hug enough.  I am unfair and just mean.  I hear that voice in my head daily, shut up Terri! I give you grace daily and you lose your temper at every turn.   Today, is made up to be a big deal, but really I should thank my mom daily.  I may not have given birth to her, but she couldn't be more like me if I did.  Some days it is like looking into a mirror.  Attitude, selfishness, demanding, emotional, dramatic and easily frustrated.  Then I look again and I see the smile, silliness, happy, sweet, loving person she is.  She wants to please me,  it is so used to getting her way always that it is so hard to not push for it.   I love her more than word

My faith in God is the most important thing in my life.  Sure I love my child with all my heart and soul but without the grace and the planning of God, she would not be here either. I am always stumped when people say to me how could you still believe in God after this happened to you or why would you believe in a God that lets bad things happen to people, namly you?  As much as I would like to quote a bunch of scripture at you but I can't.  Or maybe I really can but don't have the confidence in myself to do it.  It is so hard for me to put it into words, but I trust God and his plan for me because every time I try to take things into my own hands I don't always get it right.  I trust him because even though he gave me free will he already knows I am totally going to screw things up.  I love and trust God beause even when things are as bad as I think they can get and then get worse I know there is a reason for it and it may take days, months or years to figure it out but I