Today's Grab Bag of Thoughts

I am addicted to the Simpsons Tapped Out App. There is absolutely no reason for me to play, no point and there are probably better ways to spend my life. BUT yet I can't wait to keep going there and checking on things. LOL. All I need now is a friend equally obsessed so that I can visit your world and get money. LOL Come on people get addicted so that I am not alone. :-)

Just realized that I love Easter and Halloween much more now....child = candy = happy mom (and roommates) woo hoo.

I am not good at bedtime. I can't decipher from the need for affection due to everything, the desire not to go too sleep, or if she really miss me. I get so frustrated that she is fine while the tv is on but then all of a sudden now that the cartoons are over she is scared, misses everyone, can't sleep unless I am there. I want to cuddle her but I also don't want to encourage her to think that if she tries to cry that she get everything she wants. I have a hard time with the constant smothering hugs and kisses. I love it and I don't. It makes me feel cluster phobic and then like crap. I get so frustrated and I start to boil. Then I feel like total crap and want to just cry. I try to give her understanding and go to lay with her then she starts talking and won't stop. So then I want to get up....endless cycle. I'm failing at this and keep apologizing for not keeping a level head, then I hear a friend of mine saying take all of the love you can get from

You know those days where you feel like just telling everyone off, quiting your job, leaving everything behind you that drives you nuts and just going home and riding your bike with your kid, cuddling on the couch watching whatever she wants to watch and shut out the rest of the world. TODAY

We'll get to the title in a bit. Let me set the weekend picture. This weekend has been a crazy and awesome weekend for us. Not only did we have Alyssa's Brother (my nephew) still here visiting, but my sister and my other to nephews came down Friday to help celebrate Alyssa birthday. Friday night consisted of family and more family: add to the group 4 -3rd cousins for Alyssa and 2 second cousins along with everyone else. Sleep??? Not really, got home after ten and we had to be up by 8am for t-ball the next day. Saturday up at 7:45 am hoping to get a few things done before she got up. Nope she is up with me. I of course think that is a guarantee that we will be on time to the game. HAHA who am I kidding. She may wake up in the morning but she moves like a snail. T-ball was great but she had so many people watching her she really didn't pay attention to the game. She was, I think, too excited about her pending birthday party to care. Games over and now we have tons of t

Tonight while putting Alyssa to sleep she asked if we could pray, to her usually means talk to her mom. The prayers were so sweet and honest. "Dear Mom, I miss you a lot. Hope you sleep well. Auntie is taking great care of me and keeping me safe. I am home schooled and we will find a school for me soon.... There was more but really my heart was so warm and my eyes watery so I can't recall. So all the crabbiness, you're mean, mimicking, and tears are all worth it.