Today's Grab Bag of Thoughts

Well it wasn't more than 13 days ago I finally sat down to write a post and in that post I said "still single"...funny thing is days letter I would fall head over heels for someone just like me.  As I sit and look back on my life and what I wanted and when I wanted them I never really just let God take the reigns when it came to relationships.  Why?  Because it is so much fun to hang out with tons of people that will break your heart.  j/k In all seriousness I have dated some craptastic men over the last X amount of years and each one has shown me my weaknesses and where I wont compromise.  However I have also dated 4 very wonderful, caring and loving men.  Each one of them helped me to see a bit more of who I am and what I want in life.  Each of them helped me to become the woman I am today.  I take away great memories and great lessons on how to do things better next time.  Though God's love and grace did the most.  God's love for me...

Recently I read an excerpt from a new book by Lysa TerKeurst tilted " Uninvited: Living Loved When You Feel Less Than, Left Out, and Lonely " that really hit me.  Maybe not a message specifically directed to me, but I could relate and know many people who feel unloved, left out and lonely.  We all have those days when we feel amazing and not amazing and that is normal.  Ever been uninvited somewhere?  Shunned?  Lost friends because of gossip or a poor decision?  Been a bitch? Yes, just wrote that we are all grown ups here.  :-)  What if your self-worth depended on what others think of you (or what you think they think of you)??? As I continued to read, I started to think about the world we live in and how sometimes it can be extremely unfriendly, as can we all.  Everyday someone is hurt by someone else. Sometimes it shows on the outside, but most often it is hidden deep inside,  Sometimes it is on purpose, but a lot of times we let...

on my sisters 34th birthday I find myself ending the day like usual on her birthday or anniversary...lying in bed cuddling with a Nacho, crying, watching the slide show and now blogging.  (Slide show from the service-  https://m.facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=10151493365525259&id=599790258  )  Lying here my mind starts to wander from s ome healthy logical questions to others not so, yet I wonder any way.  I wonder what a birthday party in Heaven looks like.  I wonder if everyone you've ever known goes or if it is just family? Does the big guy make an appearance?  Is the saying up there...it ain't over until the "big guy" sings?   Do you get gifts or because your are in heaven and you already have all you could want is their presence gift enough?  Can I get fireworks set off for my birthday every year in heaven? Did Stacy have a good day? Does she miss us? How does she deal with the extreme emotions she must be having being able to see ...

Day one of the 40's...so far so good.  Why was 25 so hard and 40 so easy?  Well that is because at 25  I had so many plans for myself.  I wanted so much for myself and I kept saying that by 25 I should be xyz. Well now, I have realized or come to accept that God has a plan for me and that it all will come out in his time.   My plans be married by 25...God's plans married when and if he wants to. My plans have kids only after marriage...God's plans raise my sweet niece now. My plans move up the ladder and get that title...God's plans go teach to get a perspective on life, then realize that life is much more than the title you have unless that title is MOM.  My plans never rely on anyone for anything...God's plans show me that life is about relationships and letting your guard down sometimes and letting people in and let them help.  Humbling.  We could go one for ever at this...but you can see that God's plan is always better than ours.  I may ...