Harder than I thought
Landed back in Raleigh today and wow I never thought the emotions would be so high. It doesn't seem real that tomorrow I have to go two different places to get the kids. That she isn't on base waiting for me. That Haley is not even here. There is happiness to see the kids but a lot of sadness too.
When you visit every month for a week at a time for 6 months straight you grow a bigger attachment than your normal everyday love. You start to feel more like they are also your kids and you just want to see them succeed. So coming back here today is both wonderful and horrible.
The good news is that I get to have one of my nieces for the whole weekend. I get to see my nephew play basketball and the hang with him too. Stacy and I may not have been the closest until the end of her years but she knew I loved her and that I'd do anything for those kids.
I am going to make the best of this trip and heal. Smother them with love to hold them over for my next visit. I hope to come back in June and bring the girls to Ca for the summer.
When you visit every month for a week at a time for 6 months straight you grow a bigger attachment than your normal everyday love. You start to feel more like they are also your kids and you just want to see them succeed. So coming back here today is both wonderful and horrible.
The good news is that I get to have one of my nieces for the whole weekend. I get to see my nephew play basketball and the hang with him too. Stacy and I may not have been the closest until the end of her years but she knew I loved her and that I'd do anything for those kids.
I am going to make the best of this trip and heal. Smother them with love to hold them over for my next visit. I hope to come back in June and bring the girls to Ca for the summer.
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