Isn't funny how life works...
Well it wasn't more than 13 days ago I finally sat down to write a post and in that post I said "still single"...funny thing is days letter I would fall head over heels for someone just like me. As I sit and look back on my life and what I wanted and when I wanted them I never really just let God take the reigns when it came to relationships. Why? Because it is so much fun to hang out with tons of people that will break your heart. j/k
In all seriousness I have dated some craptastic men over the last X amount of years and each one has shown me my weaknesses and where I wont compromise. However I have also dated 4 very wonderful, caring and loving men. Each one of them helped me to see a bit more of who I am and what I want in life. Each of them helped me to become the woman I am today. I take away great memories and great lessons on how to do things better next time. Though God's love and grace did the most. God's love for me is never ending, even when I feel unloved he still loves me. Even when I try to write the story of my life my way God is still there writing it for me and making it much better. He writes a story of his desires for me, showing his love for me and I write instant gratification.
As I look back on all those relationships good and bad, I see one key factor. It was not the right time. Now at 43 I have met someone that is so right, it has to be a God thing. Why do I say that? Well here's the thing, this person and I could have crossed paths at any time in the last 38 years because he is related to one of my very best friends. Though in all those years we have never met not even once, until just this January. Ever walk into a house and have a spark? A zing? Or just the knowledge deep in your heart that you need to get to know someone? That's what happened for me.
Don't get me wrong here, I tried very hard to mess this thing up. I rationalized things. I stomped my foot down with vigor. I tried to ignore it. But as you know when God has a plan he doesn't let you mess it up too bad.
In just 24 days, I have found that the one person I tried to run away from is the one person I should have ran right to. This man has been picked from God, sure I know that is sounds weird to some but I believe it was meant to be. Had we met in any of the last 38 years neither one of us would have been ready for this. We needed to live life, experience heart break, experience healing, grow up and prepare our hearts for what happens next. You might not believe in miracles, but I do. 38 years of being in the same circle of people, sharing a lot of the same likes and dislikes, having very compatible silly personalities and living rarely more than 30 minutes apart for years and we never met...until the time was right.
Welcome to our ride my friends....I hope you enjoy it as much as I think we will.
In all seriousness I have dated some craptastic men over the last X amount of years and each one has shown me my weaknesses and where I wont compromise. However I have also dated 4 very wonderful, caring and loving men. Each one of them helped me to see a bit more of who I am and what I want in life. Each of them helped me to become the woman I am today. I take away great memories and great lessons on how to do things better next time. Though God's love and grace did the most. God's love for me is never ending, even when I feel unloved he still loves me. Even when I try to write the story of my life my way God is still there writing it for me and making it much better. He writes a story of his desires for me, showing his love for me and I write instant gratification.
As I look back on all those relationships good and bad, I see one key factor. It was not the right time. Now at 43 I have met someone that is so right, it has to be a God thing. Why do I say that? Well here's the thing, this person and I could have crossed paths at any time in the last 38 years because he is related to one of my very best friends. Though in all those years we have never met not even once, until just this January. Ever walk into a house and have a spark? A zing? Or just the knowledge deep in your heart that you need to get to know someone? That's what happened for me.
Don't get me wrong here, I tried very hard to mess this thing up. I rationalized things. I stomped my foot down with vigor. I tried to ignore it. But as you know when God has a plan he doesn't let you mess it up too bad.
In just 24 days, I have found that the one person I tried to run away from is the one person I should have ran right to. This man has been picked from God, sure I know that is sounds weird to some but I believe it was meant to be. Had we met in any of the last 38 years neither one of us would have been ready for this. We needed to live life, experience heart break, experience healing, grow up and prepare our hearts for what happens next. You might not believe in miracles, but I do. 38 years of being in the same circle of people, sharing a lot of the same likes and dislikes, having very compatible silly personalities and living rarely more than 30 minutes apart for years and we never met...until the time was right.
Welcome to our ride my friends....I hope you enjoy it as much as I think we will.
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